Once you decide that egg freezing is the route you want to take towards extending your fertility. You will be asked to contact your doctors office on the first day of your cycle so that you can book a Day 2 appointment for baseline testing, ultrasounds, hormone levels and blood work.
I can remember, waking up on Day 2 feeling really emotional. I had just wrapped a big project for work, and now I was shifting my focus to the much bigger picture at hand.
My truth: (Hit me side ways this time) All I could think about, was that my series of choices in life has brought me to this point. Although, I had an incredible support system in place, I couldn’t help but feel alone. The whole thing is so damn surreal (but too important to leave up to “fate”), I just never want to have regrets that I didn’t preserve my healthy DNA as a very costly plan B.
After a tear-filled call to my parents explaining my inner dialogue, they assured me of their whole hearted support by offering to help pay 1/3 of the cost. A gesture, that will always mean the world to me (that my parents would invest in the hope of their future Grandchild).
However, the subsidy came with one stipulation my Mom thoughtfully noted, “When it does come time to actually have a baby, just because we are offering our support – should not put any pressure on your decision.”
That call, combined with my parents support, is what gave me the strength that morning to put on my big-girl pants, so that I could drive myself to the fertility clinic.
That drive over to the clinic by myself made me really think of why I felt so alone when I wasn’t. After all, I was in a serious relationship with a man that I knew I was going to marry. But at that point it was all on me. The eggs were mine, the monetary investment was mine, the signature on the paper work was mine, the heady decisions of the directive of what to do with the eggs should something happen to me was mine, the meds I was about to strain my body with – all mine, so that hopefully we could have something that could be OURS.
As I sat in the waiting room, all I wanted to do is talk to someone about how I was feeling. When it came time for me to have my first blood draw, the nurse was all business, and at that point I realized these experts are not paid to be here to be psychologist or a therapist. If you are sitting in their chair putting on your brave face as you fake your way through your phobia of needles and having your blood taken, it means you are there because you mean business too. At that moment, I felt all in – and when I’m all in, it means I commit 110% to do my best to insure the best possible outcome, or at least the best possible outcome that my body was capable of producing over the next 2 weeks.